Log 6

    Okay, this is the final log of me reading thirteen reasons why, I can tell you, confidently, it's a long long long long journey for me, and this s also the first time I finish reading through an English novel.

    

    I usually tell you a some plots so that you can have a bigger picture of what I'm saying. However, since this is the last log that I would ever write about this novel, and there are tons of surprise that are waiting for you to explore yourself, I will skip the plots sharing. Trust me, the novel would "really" get you differently than the Netflix series.

    

    So, where's the juicy part, Quinn? Here I am to tell you how this novel strike me with its interesting  thoughts and inspiring plots.

   

    Let's talk about bully (if it's not too soon to talk about this, but it's the main element of the novel). I'm so glad that I've gone through bullies. It's a way to understand how it works, and how it results. "If you understand it, then you'll no longer be afraid of it." As hard for me to relate sexual insults and harassments in this book, I can still relate to the feelings of bully, like Hannah received. I want to clarify that bully is never a right thing to do, but people do bully other unconsciously. They're not aware of that people are feeling bullied. That's also a thing I learned from this novel. When Hannah is working really hard making those tapes about her reasons of death, she fails to see that people did not really notice it. Even when she's dead, some still couldn't figure out what they did to her to make her kill herself.

    

    Let's put the word "bully" aside. I think the whole novel is a reminder of how can these "actions" result in different consequences. We fail to notice something we do can cause other uncomfortable, and sick. Therefore, we need to work harder on keeping track of what we're doing, how it make other feel? Or is it okay to do it to that person? Since you firmly believe what you did is not wrong, then what you think is no longer important anymore. What matter is what other think, that is, the receiver. And I'm here to tell all the people including me that: you "are" a bully, but fail you to found out. I believe that people must do things sickening people, or anything that's not respectful. So through this novel and all the bully example it provides, we all need to reinspect our behavior, stand in other's shoes, and be a better person in treating others. It's the lesson this novel taught me in a few weeks, and I do think it's important.

    How do you think about moving on to suicide? But it's never you deciding what to write next, right? 

     This novel is using suicide as an base to develop the plot, which is also the part that I really consider it controversial, "even for me". The whole book is revolving around the edges of the sinful deed, however, in a skillful way. Yes, I couldn't deny using teenager suicide might be misleading and somewhat glamorizing, but the thing that we can perceive, observe, and learn beyond that is something truly important. 

    "When I'm dead, they'll all be sorry." 

    

    For a person in his/her young age, things can always go wrong in its own way. Just like Hannah, we can see that everything happened to her was her reasons to end herself. But did that really worth it? I've never doubted the value of living, but here is the time when we should all start to think about our meaning of lives. Reading this novel, I sometimes started thinking: What if I lose the purpose to live? Would I do the same like Hannah? It's never easy for a teenager to figure out their reasons of living, but easy for them to find a reason to die. Don't these still apply to our lives right now? We are so pessimistic all the time living in this urban world, but we spend little time appreciate how good we already are. So I interpreted suicide as negativity here. If you keep finding reasons for it, like Hannah did, her thirteen reasons, then you will only feed your own negativity. Oppositely, if you don't, then there is no way that suicide will be an "option". So keep your head up! What you think matters so much more that what you encounter! And stop feeding your own negativity!

    I know it's always hard for people to face their flaws, again, "even for me". But by reading this book, it gave me a chance to recheck what I've done, and what I haven't done. It's just so great that I can spend some time not only reading a teenage novel, but also reading through my life. I appreciate for this long long long long long journey. It grew me up even though it didn't tell me everything I have to do. I guess this is the power of human reflection. When we're reading, we reflect on ourselves. So I hope that all of you can have a good time reading, and exploring yourself! And this is the official end of my blog! Thank you for your time reading! See you guys around!